Kiss-illusion

I kiss your mouth every day
In a cold picture of you
As a lie, a lie-kiss that i wanna kiss
To feel lonely more and more
For you are just a dream.

I kiss your mouth every night
In my dreams
In my sweetest dreams
As a truth, a truth-kiss i wanna kiss
To stay alive day after day
For you are my own wish for life.

I kiss your mouth every moment
In my thoughts
In my foolish thoughts
As a foolish-kiss i wanna kiss
To make believe i will survive
This missing, this empty mouth
This hungry...

Maybe someday i will look behind
And notice that you were here all the time
In a fantasy
In my deepest despair
In a kind of love i never knew
Inside of me... all the time.

Maybe i will find
What love is, after all.
In that moment i'll way see
How stupid i've been
How weak, how silly i've been
For having no courage to tell you
That you are my sweetest dream
My best thought
My most real fantasy
My whole life.
Life that i spent
With a fear, a stupid fear
Afraid of opening my heart,
Afraid of the answers
That i could hear from you.

Maybe i will find that i wasn't living
But waiting for life all the time
Waiting for you to come from my desires
To make my existence finally come true.

Will it be late?
Yeah, maybe.
Maybe is already too late now
For me to close my eyes and dream
With this precious kiss of you
With this precious heart of you
With you...

I wanna kiss the mouth of an angel!


EmmyLibra, july 1st, 2007 - 9:15am